Its 2005
I can't believe its 2005
I grateful that I'm still alive
I think this year I'll strive to be
a lot more honest coz it sets me free
Lately I'm feeling like a lot of compromise needs to fly out the door of my life
I have to come clean with myself about weakesses I've been afraid to admit.
I'm afraid to say that lately more and more the prospect of waiting for marriage
just seems a drag. My hearts a flutter I'm getting worse and worse at this thing called self control in that dimension. (I still think its wrong but I can see how I could compromise)
I have to admit that lately the prospect of moving in with my boyfriend has become that much more attractive and I have to admit I'm tempted to shut the door to my conscience,(he doesn't think its a good idea either but I figure I had better admit I am tempted)
I can honestly say that I have toyed with the idea of lying because it seems thats the only way to get away with stuff at the office,
And recently I have been a tad more judgemental of people who are doing all the above,
I learnt somewhere that most of the time what bites you about other people is your weakness..... I donnu why God picked this point in my life to shine his bright light and conviction in these areas of my life. Possibly to save me from making huge errors in my life.
So I've decided to come clean. I've also decided to be more accountable to the people who have been my greatest spiritual influence and friends in life so I am going to let them in on this blog...well they always knew about it but I never let them post in it. It was to be my blog but in this christian life I know I can't walk alone and when the pressure is on me to get my act right I think I need all the help I can get so Liz and Mel I love you both and thanks that I know I can count on you guys to pray for me and give me all the good advice a girl needs.I know you won't be afraid to be blunt and honest coz you love me enough to help me realign.
Heres to Honesty and Growth and Renewal and all the new things God has promised me
