God works...Don't forget that!
There's a verse that goes, no in fact let me type it up...
What if some did not believe and were without faith? Does their lack of faith and their faithlessness nullify and make ineffective and void the faithfulness of God and His fidelity [to His Word]? that's romans 3:3
and here's the french version....it's really neat.
Que faut-il dire alors si certains leur ont été infidèles[a]? Leur infidélité anéantira-t-elle la fidélité de Dieu?
i like biblegateway.com...they have all these language versions and bible versions...anyway to get to the point...
so i sometimes feel like a spoilt brat towards God. I mean if nothing is going the way I want it to, i'm like "Oh God" crying out etc etc. but i reached a point where i was like, you know what, God just have all my life...all of it. i mean there are times where i've ventured out on my own, gone against what I knew was right and it backfired...right up in my face. so i figured the only way thru is with God...and I gave it all to Him. BUUUTTTTT well, i got tested. and failed. if you remember my blog (hmmm) i was out of sorts about my med school applications. i reached a point where i had envisaged selling my tv for $70...wondering what to do with my bean bag when i leave school and go home. that sort of thing. and i was just really feeling discouraged about this whole application process. possibly the reason for my mumbled prayers and dry quiet times. but this past week...in the uttermost depth of my discouragement, it was the hour just before dawn. i heard from a med school. and the best part about it was i wasn't even expecting it...and i had been like :p toward God you know. But He's sooo faithful inspite of my unfaithfulness. bless Him for that. can you imagine if i'd spent my time just enjoying God and not worrying?..i mean i would have still heard from the med school. life's funny like that...
sweet potato pie gone wrong
well, i've lately gone into this craze of making sweet potato pie after tasting the most delicious one during the summer...i mean there has never ever been a sweet potato pie made as good as the one i tasted (and if you have a problem with that, blog this!). anyhow for real, i don't know whether it was the love in the pie or what but every time i have made one, they've been good but not as good. i still don't know. maybe i'm missing some secret ingredient. well, i tried yesterday but i only had one sweet potato so after mixing the ingredients i figured it just wouldn't be enough...and the proportion of sugar to the sweet potato was just way over there. anyway, i finally decided to make sweet potato cake...i added raisins, bacardi rum, eggs, flour, baking powder..soda....and the cake turned out to be simply AMAZING. is there any truth in the saying "try your talents elsewhere"? my sister was a large fan of that statement. well there you have it. now you can try make sweet potato, rum and raisin cake...but it won't be as good as mine because i might have officially found my niche...;) (you know i'm kidding...but not kidding about the taste of the cake...awesome cake...)
can't live a day...
Avalon - Can't Live a Day Lyrics
I could live life alone
And never fill the longings of my heart
The healing warmth of someone's arms
And I could live without dreams
And never know the thrill of what could be
With every star so far and out of reach
I could live without many things
And I could carry on, but
I couldn't face my life tomorrow
Without Your hope in my heart I know
I can't live a day without You
Lord, there's no night and there's no morning
Without Your loving arms to hold me
You're the heartbeat of all I do
I can't live a day without You
I could travel the world
See all the wonders beautiful and new
They'd only make me think of You
And I could have all life offers
Riches that were far beyond compare
To grant my every wish without a care
Oh, I could do anything, oh yes
But if You weren't in it all
Jesus, I live because You live
You're like the air I breathe
Oh Jesus, oh, I have because You give
You're everything to me
by C. Harrington, J. Beck, T. Lacy
what love is
i think i've begun to forget what love is. a lil'. maybe it's in the way i treat others sometimes. maybe it's in my assumptions of what people are like and what they believe in or don't believe in.
what happens when what you thought was wrong, what you thought was what life shouldn't be is a part of the people whom you're closest to? what if what God deems as wrong is a part of those people you love? i've heard a song lately, which i really like called "i don't want to be" by gavin degraw. i'll post the lyrics below. it basically talks about a guy who wants to be nothing but himself. he's tired of trying be what people are telling him to be or not to be. at least that's what i get from it. i know for a fact that it is frustrating, fighting with who you really are. trying to be yourself yet find a place in this world.
that's why i wrote this a long time ago:
me, not what everyone else is
not what everyone else does
not what everyone else wants
because i am me and nothing and no one can change me....
i was frustrated that day. and sometimes i fail to remember that people choose to be what i might not agree with but that's who they know they are so how can i judge them? how can i force them to be something else? i cannot. people all around me seem to be saying, this is me, i don't want to change, can you handle that? i know i want to be "me", how come somewhere at the back of my head i don't want them to be who they say they are...or even do what they do that they believe makes them, them?...
"I Don't Want To Be"
I don't need to be anything other
Than a prison guard's son
I don't need to be anything other
Than a specialist's son
I don't have to be anyone other
Than the birth of two souls in one
Part of where I'm going, is knowing where I'm coming from
I don't want to be
Anything other than what I've been trying to be lately
All I have to do
Is think of me and I have peace of mind
I'm tired of looking 'round rooms
Wondering what I've got to do
Or who I'm supposed to be
I don't want to be anything other than me
I'm surrounded by liars everywhere I turn
I'm surrounded by imposters everywhere I turn
I'm surrounded by identity crisis everywhere I turn
Am I the only one who noticed?
I can't be the only one concerned!
I don't want to be
Anything other than what I've been trying to be lately
All I have to do
Is think of me and I have peace of mind
I'm tired of looking 'round rooms
Wondering what I've got to do
Or who I'm supposed to be
I don't want to be anything other than me
Can I have everyone's attention please?
If you're not like this and that, you're gonna have to leave
I came from the mountain
The crust of creation
My whole situtation-made from clay to stone
And now I'm telling everybody
I don't want to be
Anything other than what I've been trying to be lately
All I have to do
Is think of me and I have peace of mind
I'm tired of looking 'round rooms
Wondering what I've got to do
Or who I'm supposed to be
I don't want to be anything other than me
I don't want to be
barua pepe yako
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