some things
i want you to know (i know you already know):
- who you are around affects you for good or for worse
- God is very much aware of that
- and if something is killing you then do what you know best if nothing is changing - move
- it doesn't hurt to have a break some times
- even when it's a family member
- so take a break if you can...i'm praying you can
- and hang around someone who'll build you up
- i trust that you need your sanity
- is this at all possible? to move?
L.I.F.E
Hi Mel,
I love your current screen name...you know send out a prayer. Its the state of my heart right now.
I feel like i am totally going to explode or implode soon whichever one fits the bill.For the last few months I think I've progressively suffered from what i call personality degredation for hte lack of a better word.
I have had my feelings hurt, my mind totured I mean I really have not had a very happy existance due to my current living situation. As I have made a policy I look inward first before blaming the next guy for my problems, but its not working. I think I need a whole new heart. I have blocked out the hurt long enough I have persisted in doing nothing and everything I can think of and I'm still going round the same mountain. COnsequently I have found I no longer know how to be anything to Wendy. I can't be her friend , sister or hoursemate. Its all an act now, and i can't live like this. I hate pretending to be anything and thats all I ever do nowadays. I pretend things don't bug me and all. Please don't pull the talking card, I have talked and nothings changed.
I feel like i'm a worse person every day. I need to come out of here. HELP.
