I really am NOT God's Favourite Kid
This realisation dawned on me a couple of weeks ago but I've been away from the blog mush longer than that. So I'll give you a brief summary on how I came to this conclusion and my life since...
I was reading the bible one evening and it so happens I was reading about making God a liar. You knwo the verse if you say you have no sin them you make God out to be a liar. And I thought about many home truths in the bible for me, and how many I had actually acknowledged as being true in my life.Until I believed he loved me I made a liar out on Him by thinking he didn't. etc
So I was thinking of all the things I say and found that I keep telling people I am God's favourite Kid.But you know what we are all God's favoutrite. ALl the apple of his eye and he has no preferrences. We are all the same.
When I started seeing it all that way my perspective on other people has changed. I mean al always believed everyone deserves teh best in life but with my I'm God's fav attitude in a subtle way I thought people who I didn't like didn't deserve it as much. Now I felt challenged to expect the best even for people i din't think deserve it. Since then I have got a promotion, a raise a peaceful house and just more overall peace and you all know peace is essential.
I also realised inspite of the fact that indeed I am still the apple of God's eye his grace being all sufficient for me doesnt' mean I take advantage pof it. SO yeah when I learn I have to get responsible too.
SO last weekend i had a decision to make. Fairly basic do I or don't I go on this outing with my company...so you knkow i ask that inner mand who has so far guided me to my present situation and I have this really huge nagging feeling inside that I should not go. Inspite of this and my very not good to go situation ie no phone and no debit card I went. HAd agood time no doubt but ended up in a car accident. I felt like Jonah must've felt just before he got in the whales belly. I mean how can my disobidience cause so mush stress. Thankfully I was the only one hurt. Well the car and I and while everyone was wondering how I was mangaing to stay so calm I knew in my heart I was learning a lesson and in spite of it all it felt good to be in that situation It felt good to experience God's gracea again. That in spite of my disobedience I had my life spared. Well I still feel like God's fav kid so ...go figure...
Leet God take care of you
1 Comments:
talk about listening to God. it's funny that way. i can't even move on certain things in my life because i know God doesn't want me there. well had this thing about med school in australia. very tempting. i mean my sis is there and the sun actually does shine...but every time i look up the web pages, i have this nasty feeling.
man God loves us so...i know it but i feel i ain't loving Him back. hmmm. another story indeed.
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